Life can be hard, no it is hard. But When you put your faith and trust in the lord things can and will be alright, and you can do what ever it is that you have been tested with. Trials are a daily part of any life, and the harder your trials the more you have the opportunity to show who you really are, and what you are truly capable of doing. God does not give us trials and then leave us alone to deal with them on our own, but if we do not ask for his help he will not assist us.
You hear about things on the news. Assaults, people getting hurt by others, but you never think that it will happen to you until it does.
I have come to hate a single word in the English language. I hate it more than any other word when it leaves my mouth it feels dirty, it makes me feel sick from my very soul out. That word is Rape.
It is hard for me to even write it let alone talk about it. But I must. I have to or I will never be able to live a normal life again.
The end of July I turned 22. It was a fun time a very fun time. I was at a family reunion, I had plans for the next year, My whole life was looking so good, and then a few mistakes, a few moments of not being safe in every way I know how to be, and every thing changed.
I was Raped, in a parking lot, in the middle of the night, with my four year old in the car fast asleep. Most cases of Rape go unreported, and this was one of them, until I learned that I was pregnant.
Life is hard, and this is one of the hardest things I have ever done. I decided to place the baby with an adoptive family. and things are going well with that. I am excited for the family I picked, and I know that she is going to a good family who will love her in a way that I never will be able to.
Unfortunately I have to go and cry now so I will leave it at that for now.
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