Some times life can be hard. sometimes it is easy, and sometimes you just don't really care that much. I am going through one of those I just don't really care times. life has been a bit crazy, and I wih it was better, but I am working on it.
I recntly realized that I have been quite depressed for about 3 years. and that I need some help. This all came to me as I was standing in front of the doughnut section of my local grocery store doing math in my head when I started balling uncontrollably for no reason what so ever.
So I went to my Doctor, and got on some meds, and I set up an appointment to see a therapist. which is a step in the correct direction. I also am taking a leave of absence from my job to get my emotions strait as I wasn't really able to do my job how I was feeling.
So I have not been at work for about a week and a few days. I have been adjusting to my medication, and things are starting to look a bit cheerer. Today I woke up at 7:45 am, and I fed my son breakfast. The first time I have done it myself in....over a year. Then I took a shower, and did ALL the laundry. Which was exciting as I haven't really done a lot of laundry for a very long time. Most of the time I just do one load to get clean underware socks and a few shirts to get me until I have my next week end.
on top of ALL of the laundry I did, I cleaned my bathroom, cleaned my son's room, pulled his bedding off his bed washed it, and made his bed for him, and spent a few hours playing with my boy. All in all one of the better days I have had in a VERY long time. Even though I am miserable as I am having a Major allergy attack. Still a very good day all in all I was very motivated and I hope that I can keep that motivation tomorrow, and in the days that are to come.
Now on to important things. My little brother, who I lovingly call Munchkin, even though he is almost 6 feet tall, is going on a mission for our church on about 2 weeks, and I am missing him already. He will be in the Northern part of Brazil for 2 years, and I know that the time will seem to go by fast, but I can't help but wonder what my life will look like when he gets back.
I hope that it is in better shape than it has been the past few years that I have been living back at home with him, and my parents. But hope, and faith are all I really have at the moment, and I pray that it will be enough to get me to the end.
Also my sister Kate is moving home, and I am excited about that. She is a VERY awesome sister who I love a great deal.
My eyes and legs just started twitching so that is my cue to exit stage right to my very comfortable looking bed with its clean sheets and pillow cases. :)
